This sums up a lot of things for me right now:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g6vVR63iwMg&p=E206F8B11787820B&playnext=1&index=69
I'm really loving this video. Not only do I love Modest Mouse and especially this song, I'm fascinated by the images the creator(s) chose to go along with the song.
Please note I in no way own this video, the music, or any images. No copyright infringement intended.
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Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Apologies
My apologies for the inconsistency of posting. Between preparing for the trip, recovering from the trip, getting back into the swing of things at work while trying to look for other work, and having out of state relatives and friends visiting, things have been a bit hectic.
Part of that has also been my reconsidering this blog - not doing it, but what tone I'm trying to take. Being bipolar isn't a joke, but it can be funny. It can be absurd and overwhelming and ridiculous and horribly hard, but it's so important to have a sense of humor to ride all of those feelings out. I feel like this blog has been a little too much of plain dumping ground, and while I want that honesty, I also need to bring a little more perspective in. I think it's a learning process. We'll see what happens.
In the meantime.....I still have a lot of apples.
Part of that has also been my reconsidering this blog - not doing it, but what tone I'm trying to take. Being bipolar isn't a joke, but it can be funny. It can be absurd and overwhelming and ridiculous and horribly hard, but it's so important to have a sense of humor to ride all of those feelings out. I feel like this blog has been a little too much of plain dumping ground, and while I want that honesty, I also need to bring a little more perspective in. I think it's a learning process. We'll see what happens.
In the meantime.....I still have a lot of apples.
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Whyyy are you talking to me??
Every once in a while, I have days where I really really need to be left alone. I doubt I'm the only one.
During these days, I do my best to keep my head down and just barrel through the day until I can get home and be in my own space, but that's not always a possibility. I work in a pretty heavy face to face interaction/open communication position, so regardless of how I'm feeling, I have to be able to push it back and do my best to have patience and be calm when someone is talking to or asking something of me. Even if the idea of someone merely saying hello is enough to make me want to scream and howl with indignation. I'm a people-pleaser so when I have days like this and I realize that it's my own issue, not even anyone demanding too much from me, I become twice as frustrated and unhappy with however I react to anything.
It makes for a super fun day!!
Today was one of those days, and naturally, I had three pretty major issues come up that had to be immediately addressed and all I could do was pace myself. Anything that didn't immediately need to get done got shafted, and you know, I'm completely comfortable with that. Yes, I will probably have more to do tomorrow than I would like, but I got through the day without being hauled away because I lost it when someone asked to borrow a pen. Success!
Now I just have to hope I won't feel the same way tomorrow....
During these days, I do my best to keep my head down and just barrel through the day until I can get home and be in my own space, but that's not always a possibility. I work in a pretty heavy face to face interaction/open communication position, so regardless of how I'm feeling, I have to be able to push it back and do my best to have patience and be calm when someone is talking to or asking something of me. Even if the idea of someone merely saying hello is enough to make me want to scream and howl with indignation. I'm a people-pleaser so when I have days like this and I realize that it's my own issue, not even anyone demanding too much from me, I become twice as frustrated and unhappy with however I react to anything.
It makes for a super fun day!!
Today was one of those days, and naturally, I had three pretty major issues come up that had to be immediately addressed and all I could do was pace myself. Anything that didn't immediately need to get done got shafted, and you know, I'm completely comfortable with that. Yes, I will probably have more to do tomorrow than I would like, but I got through the day without being hauled away because I lost it when someone asked to borrow a pen. Success!
Now I just have to hope I won't feel the same way tomorrow....
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