Dating and relationships are hard under the best of circumstances. Being bipolar - well, I wouldn't call it the best of circumstances. I generally shy away from anything that might be a romantic connection because I hate the idea of wondering how they feel, how I feel, if I can control my moods around them, and if I should tell them - hey, I'm crazy. There is NO good time to bring that up. Someone let me know if you've found otherwise.
The stress of it actually can be a trigger for me and make me uberparanoid. About everything. I also have serious doubts about my ability to withstand heartbreak. Now, I know I don't need to enter every relationship thinking about the what ifs and jumping into the future...but quite frankly, I find it fairly difficult to just completely ignore it. To some degree, I must be utterly girly and overanalyze. But because I hate this, I usually avoid it.
Usually. Recently, in an effort to take more chances and to determine what it is I want and like in my life, I agreed to meet a couple new people. One of whom I met tonight.
All I can say is I am certainly glad I did. We will see what happens.
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