I was so so so angry all day today. I didn't even realize it until all of a sudden at the end of the day when I thought about how physically and emotionally tired I felt.
UGH. Normally I shake things off pretty quickly but I was just so mired in my annoyance and hostility that I couldn't even pull myself out of it enough to realize I was feeling like that.
Note: Listening to Eminem does not help in these situations.
Because of unrealized crankiness, I almost cut out something that could become a good part of my life just because I was feeling the angry exhaustion without knowing there was a cause. Even if that cause is relatively unjusftified and needless anger - at least it's a cause. I've got to start paying better attention to the signals my insides send myself.
Ugh! I hate when I act like that. My husband gets so frustrated with me, like I'm doing it on purpose. I try really hard to pay attention to where my anger is coming from, but even when it is a symptom, it feels so real! I'm really THAT angry.
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